Stuckinmiddle's Blog

Hmm... Sometimes, I find it can be so frusturating to be someone who supports the environment. You encounter a lot of people who don't do bs, and then you encounter people that believe and have the same principles as you do, yet they follow the mainstream because they don't want to stand out. I really don't understand any of it. I think maybe, its because they think that all people who have even an ounce of respect for the environment are hippies, tree huggers, pot smokers, and government-hating-lunatic s that like to pie politicians in the face. Take for example, the fact that there is an election coming up soon where I live. I have made an informed decision about how I vote. Through all of my research I have determined I am a proud green party member. I am smart, and my political opinions and bview are held in high regard around my friends. However, as soon as the words "green" and "party" escaped my lips, I was surrounded by laughter. "You seriously think that they are going to work?", "Omg, your such a little nerd." "Honestly, go hug a tree." However, when I asked them why they supported the conservatives so strongly, they had no back-up. Nothing at all, just the fact that their parents were conservative. A few of them, upon me interogating them, said they were in fact green, however their parents would kill them if they found out they were. They said there was no point in voting for the green party, that they wouldn't win. If people like them did vote, they would win.

The green party is an awesome party as far as I am concerned. They support aids, education, and their platforms on health care and infrastructure are phenominal. A combination of all of the good parts of the shitty parties that run our country. However, due to society's lable of them being tree huggers who just want to take our tax money and throw it at the polar bears, no one bothers to find these things out. It makes me furious. It makes me furious how people think that they have the right to complain when they don't vote. It makes me furious how they just vote for parties because its what everyone else is doing. It makes me furious how in my city, our voter turnout was 22% and we got the shittiest mayor back on city council, because all of the elders love him. Then the people in my city have the tenacity to complain about him? All it takes is marking down a friggen x on a piece of paper. Its ridiculous. Where have people's morals and principles gone? What's the point of a democracy if no one votes, no one finds out which party they like best, and no one thinks for themselves? I want to go into politics, once the oil in Alberta runs out. I don't know why, I want to help everyone who hates the environment and likes the oil because it gives them fancy toys. I think im crazy, but I care too much about this great country we call Canada not to feel that it is my duty to do something about it. I'm insane, maybe. I'm a tree hugger, sure. But at least I can think for myself.

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Stuckinthemiddle

It appears to me, that this site is very confusing. If anyone has any advice on anything at all please message me. I have been prodding around for about 2 hours now, and I am getting no where--- i think my natural blonde is starting to show through lol. This has not been a very exciting blog, so here is a statement that will make your head spin:

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So, I woke up from a sleepover today, and I had to go to play practice. It made me miserable. Don't get me wrong, I love to act, but when you are just an extra and have to sit there for 7 hours while older grades get all the fun parts, it makes you feel worthless. I have been trying to make new friends lately, because of "the fiasco (will be explained in later  blogs)". I just seem to be having issues. Like, have you ever gone up to someone that you've never really talked to, with your heart racing and your mind spinning, hoping to get a good reaction? Only to be shut down, by a bland reply and a blank face, which then turns its back to you? I don't know, I talked to some grade 12s today, which was nice, and I have quite a few aquaintences, but I want friends!!!!

I hate floating from group to group, looking for acceptance. In middle school, I was me. Ever since highschool, that confident, spunky, and quirky girl has left the building. I'm ashamed, now, that I buy my clothes from vallue village. I walk through the halls clutching my binder, smiling at people who cock their eyebrows at me. At lunch, I used to be the life of the party, always smiling etc, now me and my best friend Lizzie sit alone, or walk the halls, to not look like loners. Sure, I suppose I could be hated. I'm not hated. I'm just not loved. And it hurts, and its slowly turning me into one of those sheep that blindly follow the crowd. I hate it. But I just don't know how else to survive in highschool. I don't want to be an average teenager, but it seems as if highschool has already turned me into one.

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